1 00:00:02,333 --> 00:00:06,033 Amber: I FEEL LIKE A NASTY, YUCKY MONSTER. 2 00:00:06,033 --> 00:00:08,633 SOMETIMES, I FEEL SO HOPELESS. 3 00:00:13,633 --> 00:00:16,433 Man: I AM LIVING A NIGHTMARE. 4 00:00:16,433 --> 00:00:19,933 I WOULDN'T WISH THIS ON MY WORST ENEMY. 5 00:00:19,933 --> 00:00:23,267 Woman: I HATE THIS LIFE THAT I HAVE. 6 00:00:31,767 --> 00:00:34,600 DON'T YOU DARE PUT IT ALL UP ON ME! 7 00:00:34,600 --> 00:00:36,833 LISTEN, SHE IS GOING TO DIE. THAT'S ENOUGH! 8 00:00:36,833 --> 00:00:38,933 BOTH OF Y'ALL, STOP. 9 00:00:42,400 --> 00:00:44,167 Dr. Nowzaradan: WE'VE GOT TO CORRECT THIS PROBLEM. 10 00:00:44,167 --> 00:00:47,933 OTHERWISE, SURGERY WOULD NOT BE USEFUL FOR YOU. 11 00:00:47,933 --> 00:00:49,500 [ Voice breaking ] I CAN'T DO THIS 12 00:00:49,500 --> 00:00:52,400 WITHOUT SOMEBODY TO HELP ME SAY NO. 13 00:00:57,733 --> 00:01:01,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS IS A SERIOUS SITUATION. 14 00:01:01,067 --> 00:01:03,600 SHE COULD BE HAVING A HEART ATTACK. 15 00:01:03,600 --> 00:01:06,600 -- Captions by VITAC -- www.vitac.com 16 00:01:06,600 --> 00:01:09,633 CAPTIONS PAID FOR BY DISCOVERY COMMUNICATIONS 17 00:01:10,533 --> 00:01:14,767 Amber: WHEN YOU LET FEAR CONTROL YOUR LIFE, 18 00:01:14,767 --> 00:01:17,200 YOU END UP AT A PLACE THAT'S MUCH WORSE 19 00:01:17,200 --> 00:01:19,700 THAN WHAT YOU WERE TRYING TO AVOID. 20 00:01:36,400 --> 00:01:42,067 SOMETIMES, I THINK TO MYSELF, "I'M NEVER GONNA CHANGE." 21 00:01:42,067 --> 00:01:45,700 EVERYTHING HURTS. 22 00:01:45,700 --> 00:01:49,267 MY BACK HURTS. MY SHINS HURT. 23 00:01:52,133 --> 00:01:55,967 I AM SO LIMITED IN WHAT I CAN DO AND WHERE I CAN GO. 24 00:01:58,600 --> 00:02:01,800 I HAVE TO DO A BATH DOWNSTAIRS MOST OF THE TIME. 25 00:02:12,300 --> 00:02:14,933 I FEEL TRAPPED. 26 00:02:19,200 --> 00:02:22,467 I'M MISERABLE. 27 00:02:27,967 --> 00:02:31,067 I FEEL LIKE A NASTY, YUCKY MONSTER. 28 00:02:31,067 --> 00:02:33,867 I DON'T LIKE IT. I DON'T LIKE BEING THIS PERSON. 29 00:02:33,867 --> 00:02:35,600 I DON'T LIKE BEING THIS SIZE. 30 00:02:35,600 --> 00:02:40,133 SOMETIMES, I FEEL SO HOPELESS... 31 00:02:42,167 --> 00:02:47,500 AND I THINK THAT MAYBE IT'S NOT WORTH IT. 32 00:02:47,500 --> 00:02:49,867 MAYBE... 33 00:02:49,867 --> 00:02:53,200 MAYBE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN BETTER IF I HAD NEVER BEEN BORN. 34 00:02:58,933 --> 00:03:01,700 MY RELATIONSHIP WITH FOOD ISN'T HEALTHY. 35 00:03:01,700 --> 00:03:04,567 I SPEND A LOT OF TIME OF THE DAY STRESSING, 36 00:03:04,567 --> 00:03:07,667 "WHAT AM I GOING TO EAT, AND WHEN DO I GET IT?" 37 00:03:07,667 --> 00:03:08,833 OH, IS IT READY ALREADY? 38 00:03:08,833 --> 00:03:10,567 Patty: YEAH. IT WAS READY A WHILE AGO. 39 00:03:10,567 --> 00:03:11,633 I DIDN'T KNOW THAT. 40 00:03:11,633 --> 00:03:14,300 I CAN'T STAND FOR MORE THAN 30 MINUTES, 41 00:03:14,300 --> 00:03:17,700 AND SO MOST OF MY FOOD IS COOKED FOR ME BY MY FAMILY MEMBERS. 42 00:03:17,700 --> 00:03:22,233 I PROBABLY EAT FOUR OR FIVE TIMES A DAY. 43 00:03:22,233 --> 00:03:26,300 I CAN'T FACE THE REALITY OF HOW MANY CALORIES I EAT, 44 00:03:26,300 --> 00:03:29,067 SO I JUST DON'T KEEP TRACK AT ALL. 45 00:03:29,067 --> 00:03:33,200 THERE'S ANTICIPATION BEFORE I EAT, BUT IT'S NOT ENJOYABLE. 46 00:03:33,200 --> 00:03:36,400 IT'S A FEELING OF DESPERATION AND SADNESS. 47 00:03:36,400 --> 00:03:37,400 THANK YOU, DAD. 48 00:03:37,400 --> 00:03:39,167 Abe: YOU'RE WELCOME, HONEY. 49 00:03:39,167 --> 00:03:41,833 SO HELP YOURSELF. HAVE SOME CHICKEN. 50 00:03:41,833 --> 00:03:44,700 Amber: FOOD -- IT'S A COMFORT, 51 00:03:44,700 --> 00:03:47,867 AND IT'S HELPING ME AVOID REALITY. 52 00:03:47,867 --> 00:03:50,833 I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY, AND I DON'T LIKE IT, 53 00:03:50,833 --> 00:03:53,733 AND I AM AT PEACE WHILE I EAT. 54 00:03:53,733 --> 00:03:56,367 I DON'T HAVE TO THINK ABOUT 55 00:03:56,367 --> 00:04:00,567 THE WAY I LET THOSE AROUND ME DOWN IF I'M EATING. 56 00:04:00,567 --> 00:04:02,200 IT'S A DISTRACTION. 57 00:04:02,200 --> 00:04:06,067 Patty: AMBER'S ANXIETY -- IT'S WORRISOME. 58 00:04:06,067 --> 00:04:10,133 FOOD HELPS CALM HER DOWN TO FEEL LESS ANXIOUS. 59 00:04:10,133 --> 00:04:15,400 NOW THE OVEREATING HAS JUST SPIRALED OUT OF CONTROL. 60 00:04:15,400 --> 00:04:19,233 SHE'S LOST HER INDEPENDENCE. SHE'S PRETTY MUCH HOUSE-BOUND. 61 00:04:19,233 --> 00:04:22,933 I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP HER. 62 00:04:22,933 --> 00:04:26,067 Amber: I FEEL LIKE MY PARENTS SEE ME AS THIS FAILURE, 63 00:04:26,067 --> 00:04:29,200 THIS MISTAKE THEY CAN'T FIX, 64 00:04:29,200 --> 00:04:31,733 AND FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, 65 00:04:31,733 --> 00:04:33,733 I'VE ALWAYS FELT THAT WAY. 66 00:04:37,400 --> 00:04:41,200 I HAVE STRUGGLED WITH MY WEIGHT MY WHOLE LIFE. 67 00:04:41,200 --> 00:04:42,433 WHEN I WAS 5, 68 00:04:42,433 --> 00:04:46,700 I THINK I WEIGHED CLOSE TO 160 POUNDS. 69 00:04:46,700 --> 00:04:50,700 I WAS A LITTLE KID THAT DIDN'T KNOW 70 00:04:50,700 --> 00:04:54,600 HOW TO TAKE CARE OF MYSELF EMOTIONALLY OR PHYSICALLY. 71 00:04:54,600 --> 00:04:58,933 I KNEW THAT PEOPLE EXPRESSED LOVE TO ME BY GIVING ME TREATS, 72 00:04:58,933 --> 00:05:00,967 AND I TRIED TO LOVE MYSELF 73 00:05:00,967 --> 00:05:03,700 AND TAKE CARE OF MYSELF BY EATING. 74 00:05:05,233 --> 00:05:06,867 I WAS 16. 75 00:05:06,867 --> 00:05:08,367 I WENT TO THE DOCTOR, 76 00:05:08,367 --> 00:05:11,767 AND THEY ESCORTED ME TO A SPECIAL SCALE IN THE BACK 77 00:05:11,767 --> 00:05:14,533 BUILT FOR PEOPLE WHO ARE IN WHEELCHAIRS. 78 00:05:14,533 --> 00:05:17,433 THEY PUT ME ON IT, AND I THOUGHT, "THIS IS IT. 79 00:05:17,433 --> 00:05:20,733 I AM BIGGER THAN A PERSON PLUS A PIECE OF EQUIPMENT." 80 00:05:20,733 --> 00:05:24,333 Omar: ALL THROUGH HIGH SCHOOL, AMBER WAS REALLY OVERWEIGHT, 81 00:05:24,333 --> 00:05:26,667 AND HER SENIOR YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL, 82 00:05:26,667 --> 00:05:29,167 I THINK SHE GRADUATED, SHE WAS 425 POUNDS. 83 00:05:29,167 --> 00:05:33,133 Amber: I WENT TO COLLEGE, AND I CONTINUED TO GAIN WEIGHT 84 00:05:33,133 --> 00:05:35,933 AND BECAME MORE AND MORE INTROVERTED. 85 00:05:35,933 --> 00:05:39,433 AMBER, ALL OF A SUDDEN, SHE DOESN'T WANT TO WORK. 86 00:05:39,433 --> 00:05:41,333 SHE DOESN'T WANT TO DRIVE. 87 00:05:41,333 --> 00:05:44,800 SHE GOT DEPRESSION. I DIDN'T UNDERSTAND. 88 00:05:44,800 --> 00:05:47,600 Amber: I DROPPED OUT OF SCHOOL. 89 00:05:47,600 --> 00:05:51,233 I WASHED OUT, AND I FAILED. 90 00:05:51,233 --> 00:05:54,300 I FELT LESS THAN HUMAN. 91 00:05:54,300 --> 00:06:00,733 I'M ALREADY SUCH A FAILURE, WHY NOT KEEP FAILING? 92 00:06:00,733 --> 00:06:07,667 I FEEL LIKE I HAVE FAILED MYSELF AND MY PARENTS. 93 00:06:07,667 --> 00:06:10,333 [ GRUNTS ] 94 00:06:10,333 --> 00:06:11,933 Patty: SHE ALWAYS FELT LIKE 95 00:06:11,933 --> 00:06:14,767 SHE DIDN'T LIVE UP TO OUR EXPECTATIONS 96 00:06:14,767 --> 00:06:18,733 AND SHE WAS ALWAYS A DISAPPOINTMENT TO US. 97 00:06:18,733 --> 00:06:21,500 MY LEGS ARE TOO WEAK. I CAN'T MAKE IT. 98 00:06:23,867 --> 00:06:27,167 Patty: SHE JUST BECAME A TYPICAL UNDERACHIEVER. 99 00:06:34,333 --> 00:06:36,500 GEEZ. 100 00:06:36,500 --> 00:06:38,333 I SEE A LOT OF PITY 101 00:06:38,333 --> 00:06:41,333 IN MY MOM'S FACE WHEN SHE LOOKS AT ME. 102 00:06:41,333 --> 00:06:44,400 MOSTLY, I THINK SHE'S JUST SAD FOR ME. 103 00:06:46,067 --> 00:06:48,067 AND I CAN'T HANDLE THAT. 104 00:06:48,067 --> 00:06:50,100 [ SOBBING ] 105 00:06:57,567 --> 00:07:01,567 'CAUSE I DON'T WANT HELP. I JUST WANTED TO DO IT. 106 00:07:01,567 --> 00:07:04,833 SOMETIMES, MY DAD WOULD MAKE SNIDE COMMENTS ABOUT MY SIZE, 107 00:07:04,833 --> 00:07:06,567 AND THAT HURT ME. 108 00:07:10,800 --> 00:07:17,133 I WISH I COULD BE SELF-SUFFICIENT AND SUCCESSFUL 109 00:07:17,133 --> 00:07:21,900 AND SHOW THE WORLD I AM MADE OF SO MUCH MORE, 110 00:07:21,900 --> 00:07:25,533 BUT I KNOW AS LONG AS I'M BIG, AS LONG AS I AM OBESE, 111 00:07:25,533 --> 00:07:28,367 I WILL NEVER BE ABLE TO BE THAT PERSON. 112 00:07:34,333 --> 00:07:39,467 I'M THANKFUL FOR THE SUPPORT FROM MY BOYFRIEND. 113 00:07:39,467 --> 00:07:42,433 HE IS THE KIND OF GUY THAT PREFERS BIGGER WOMEN. 114 00:07:42,433 --> 00:07:46,767 MY BOYFRIEND IS SEXUALLY VERY FRUSTRATED. 115 00:07:46,767 --> 00:07:49,200 I THINK HE WISHES WE COULD BE INTIMATE, 116 00:07:49,200 --> 00:07:50,933 BUT I'M NOT REALLY AT A SPACE 117 00:07:50,933 --> 00:07:53,600 WHERE INTIMACY IS A THING I CAN INDULGE IN. 118 00:07:53,600 --> 00:07:55,067 MY HERO. 119 00:07:55,067 --> 00:07:56,667 I'M SORRY. 120 00:07:56,667 --> 00:07:58,333 IT'S OKAY. 121 00:07:58,333 --> 00:08:00,500 I'VE GAINED A LOT OF WEIGHT SINCE I'VE MET HIM. 122 00:08:00,500 --> 00:08:04,067 I'VE GAINED PROBABLY 200 POUNDS. 123 00:08:04,067 --> 00:08:07,200 I KNOW THAT IT'S HARD ON HIM 124 00:08:07,200 --> 00:08:10,100 TO SEE ME EXPLODE THE WAY I HAVE. 125 00:08:22,633 --> 00:08:23,567 READY? 126 00:08:23,567 --> 00:08:24,600 YEP. 127 00:08:28,067 --> 00:08:29,733 Rowdy: I LOVE HER, 128 00:08:29,733 --> 00:08:32,067 BUT I WORRY ABOUT AMBER A LOT BECAUSE OF HER WEIGHT. 129 00:08:32,067 --> 00:08:34,200 SHE'S GETTING WORSE, 130 00:08:34,200 --> 00:08:37,233 AND SHE'S BEEN GETTING WORSE RAPIDLY, 131 00:08:37,233 --> 00:08:41,533 AND I DON'T WANT TO SEE HER PASS AWAY. 132 00:08:43,467 --> 00:08:45,700 Amber: I'M ALMOST TO THE POINT WHERE GOING OUT 133 00:08:45,700 --> 00:08:48,333 ISN'T EVEN POSSIBLE FOR ME ANYMORE. 134 00:08:48,333 --> 00:08:52,800 WHEN I DO, IT'S ONLY SHOPPING FOR FOODS I WANT. 135 00:08:54,733 --> 00:08:56,167 THESE ARE SO GOOD. 136 00:08:56,167 --> 00:08:58,800 YOU KNOW WHAT? I'LL TRY THIS ONE. 137 00:09:02,100 --> 00:09:05,533 Rowdy: I DO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT BRINGING THE FOOD, 138 00:09:05,533 --> 00:09:09,800 BUT AT THE SAME TIME, IT'S SO HARD TO STOP. 139 00:09:09,800 --> 00:09:11,633 CARNITAS, PLEASE. 140 00:09:11,633 --> 00:09:16,067 I SHOULDN'T EAT ALL THIS. 141 00:09:16,067 --> 00:09:19,900 BUT, I MEAN, WHAT ELSE DO YOU DO WHEN YOU LOVE SOMEBODY, RIGHT? 142 00:09:19,900 --> 00:09:24,400 Amber: I'M SO AFRAID THAT I WILL GET SO BIG 143 00:09:24,400 --> 00:09:27,533 THAT ROWDY WILL STOP LOVING ME. 144 00:09:29,567 --> 00:09:33,700 IF WE'RE GONNA BE MARRIED, I NEED TO HAVE A PARTNER, 145 00:09:33,700 --> 00:09:39,733 NOT SOMEBODY THAT IS GONNA LET THEMSELVES DIE. 146 00:09:42,467 --> 00:09:45,433 Amber: I KNOW I'M DOING THINGS THAT ARE KILLING ME, 147 00:09:45,433 --> 00:09:48,067 AND I HAVE TO STOP. 148 00:09:56,367 --> 00:10:00,300 I TELL YOU, MY FAVORITE PART IS THE ZUCCHINI. 149 00:10:00,300 --> 00:10:02,567 I THINK THAT'S MOST EVERYBODY'S FAVORITE PART OF THIS. 150 00:10:02,567 --> 00:10:04,867 I HAVE TRIED SO HARD SO MANY TIMES 151 00:10:04,867 --> 00:10:07,900 TO NOT EAT THE WAY I EAT, BUT IT STILL HAPPENS, 152 00:10:07,900 --> 00:10:12,400 AND IT JUST KEEPS HAPPENING, AND I CAN'T STOP MYSELF. 153 00:10:12,400 --> 00:10:14,467 I COULD BE STUFFED SICK, 154 00:10:14,467 --> 00:10:17,200 AND I WOULD STILL WANT TO EAT SOMETHING 155 00:10:17,200 --> 00:10:20,533 IF IT WAS PUT IN FRONT OF ME. 156 00:10:20,533 --> 00:10:22,933 I'M ALWAYS HUNGRY. 157 00:10:22,933 --> 00:10:27,633 I REMEMBER TELLING MY BABY BROTHER, 158 00:10:27,633 --> 00:10:30,333 "IF I HIT 500 POUNDS, KILL ME." 159 00:10:30,333 --> 00:10:33,833 AND I REMEMBER THAT DAY, HE LOOKED AT ME, AND HE SAID, 160 00:10:33,833 --> 00:10:35,633 "DON'T DO ANYTHING STUPID." 161 00:10:35,633 --> 00:10:39,200 Patty: [ Voice breaking ] I'VE HAD MANY NIGHTS 162 00:10:39,200 --> 00:10:43,800 WHERE I WAKE UP SCARED TO DEATH THAT MY DAUGHTER IS GONNA DIE. 163 00:10:43,800 --> 00:10:48,933 AT THIS WEIGHT, I FEEL LIKE I PASSED THE POINT OF NO RETURN. 164 00:10:50,467 --> 00:10:55,100 IT SHOULDN'T BE THIS HARD... 165 00:10:55,100 --> 00:10:57,967 TO BE A PERSON. 166 00:10:57,967 --> 00:11:02,500 I SHOULDN'T FEEL LIKE I'M GOING TO DIE ALL THE TIME. 167 00:11:02,500 --> 00:11:06,267 IF I DON'T CHANGE, I WILL DIE. 168 00:11:10,467 --> 00:11:12,267 Amber: YOU CAN NEVER FULLY KNOW HOW HARD IT'S GOING TO BE 169 00:11:12,267 --> 00:11:14,567 TO MAKE A CHANGE UNTIL YOU DO IT, 170 00:11:14,567 --> 00:11:15,967 BUT IF IT'S WORTH IT, 171 00:11:15,967 --> 00:11:19,467 YOU WILL FIND A WAY TO DO WHAT IT TAKES. 172 00:11:25,933 --> 00:11:27,467 IT'S 5:00 IN THE MORNING, 173 00:11:27,467 --> 00:11:30,100 AND RIGHT NOW WE'RE HEADED TO THE AIRPORT, 174 00:11:30,100 --> 00:11:32,067 AND I'M GOING TO RIDE ON A PLANE 175 00:11:32,067 --> 00:11:34,533 FOR THE FIRST TIME IN FIVE OR SIX YEARS, 176 00:11:34,533 --> 00:11:35,767 AND I'M TERRIFIED. 177 00:11:48,767 --> 00:11:53,567 Patty: WE ARE DESPERATELY HOPING THAT SHE CAN HAVE SURGERY 178 00:11:53,567 --> 00:11:57,100 BECAUSE THERE DOESN'T SEEM TO BE ANY OTHER OPTION FOR HER, 179 00:11:57,100 --> 00:12:00,800 AND WE'VE BEEN TOLD THAT IF SHE DOESN'T LOSE WEIGHT, 180 00:12:00,800 --> 00:12:02,800 SHE WILL DIE BEFORE SHE'S 30. 181 00:12:02,800 --> 00:12:05,267 Abe: WALK DOWN THE STEPS. 182 00:12:05,267 --> 00:12:07,100 I CAN'T GET THROUGH. 183 00:12:10,367 --> 00:12:12,300 Amber: ALL THAT'S GOING THROUGH MY HEAD RIGHT NOW 184 00:12:12,300 --> 00:12:17,100 IS JUST FEAR AND ANXIETY AND UNCERTAINTY. 185 00:12:17,100 --> 00:12:19,500 I AM RISKING MY LIFE, MY HAPPINESS, 186 00:12:19,500 --> 00:12:22,067 EVERYTHING I'VE KNOWN THAT'S FAMILIAR. 187 00:12:22,067 --> 00:12:24,767 I AM BLOWING THE TOP OFF MY COMFORT ZONE. 188 00:12:24,767 --> 00:12:25,833 THANK YOU, DAD. 189 00:12:25,833 --> 00:12:26,967 YOU'RE WELCOME. 190 00:12:31,933 --> 00:12:35,767 IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN THIS FAR OUTSIDE MY OWN DOOR. 191 00:12:38,167 --> 00:12:40,167 I DIDN'T EVEN KNOW IF IT'S POSSIBLE 192 00:12:40,167 --> 00:12:42,633 TO GO ON A PLANE AT THE SIZE I AM RIGHT NOW. 193 00:12:44,600 --> 00:12:50,100 I'M DOING EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO NOT JUST SHUT DOWN. 194 00:12:50,100 --> 00:12:52,067 I'M NERVOUS ABOUT BEING IN PUBLIC 195 00:12:52,067 --> 00:12:53,467 IN FRONT OF SO MANY PEOPLE. 196 00:12:53,467 --> 00:12:57,933 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 197 00:13:14,200 --> 00:13:15,900 JEFF, YOU GOT THE KEYS? 198 00:13:15,900 --> 00:13:17,067 OOPS. I'M SORRY. 199 00:13:17,067 --> 00:13:18,800 YEAH, YOU'RE OKAY, HONEY. 200 00:13:18,800 --> 00:13:20,667 I THINK I BROKE THE PEDAL. 201 00:13:23,433 --> 00:13:25,533 YOU WANT ME TO GET IT? 202 00:13:25,533 --> 00:13:27,067 UH, LET ME SEE. 203 00:13:27,067 --> 00:13:29,933 Amber: I CAN'T BELIEVE THIS. 204 00:13:29,933 --> 00:13:33,333 MY WHEELCHAIR JUST BROKE. 205 00:13:33,333 --> 00:13:35,633 JUST USE YOUR FEET TO HELP. 206 00:13:38,767 --> 00:13:40,233 UH, I THINK... 207 00:13:54,733 --> 00:13:57,133 SIR, I'M SORRY TO INTERRUPT YOU. 208 00:13:57,133 --> 00:13:59,567 MY DAUGHTER CAN'T STAND FOR LONG. 209 00:13:59,567 --> 00:14:01,067 IF YOU CAN HELP US. 210 00:14:01,067 --> 00:14:02,667 [ SPEAKS INDISTINCTLY ] 211 00:14:02,667 --> 00:14:06,067 PLEASE. SHE MIGHT FALL DOWN. SO, PLEASE. 212 00:14:06,067 --> 00:14:07,800 YEAH, FINISH, FINISH. 213 00:14:10,933 --> 00:14:12,067 YEAH. 214 00:14:14,100 --> 00:14:15,400 OKAY. 215 00:14:33,133 --> 00:14:35,467 THAT WOMAN JUST SNAPPED A PICTURE OF ME, 216 00:14:35,467 --> 00:14:37,300 AND I'M NOT SURE I LIKE THAT. 217 00:14:41,133 --> 00:14:42,800 Amber: I'VE NEVER HAD PEOPLE 218 00:14:42,800 --> 00:14:47,067 SO BLATANTLY STOP AND TAKE PICTURES OF ME. 219 00:14:47,067 --> 00:14:49,433 KEEP IT TO YOURSELF. 220 00:14:53,767 --> 00:14:57,767 I AM SO HUMILIATED AND TIRED. 221 00:15:02,633 --> 00:15:05,100 YEAH, BUT I DON'T HAVE TO WALK ALL OVER THE PLACE 222 00:15:05,100 --> 00:15:06,100 IF YOU'RE DRIVING. 223 00:15:10,467 --> 00:15:13,967 I HATE BEING IN PUBLIC LIKE THIS. 224 00:15:13,967 --> 00:15:17,967 I FEEL LIKE SOME SORT OF SIDESHOW. 225 00:15:17,967 --> 00:15:20,900 I JUST WANT TO GET TO THE PLANE. 226 00:15:20,900 --> 00:15:23,867 I DON'T KNOW HOW I'M EVEN GONNA DO THIS. 227 00:15:27,800 --> 00:15:29,633 YOU CAN'T GET IN THERE? 228 00:15:29,633 --> 00:15:32,633 UM, SIR? 229 00:15:32,633 --> 00:15:33,467 SIR? 230 00:15:33,467 --> 00:15:34,567 I GOT IT, MOM. 231 00:15:34,567 --> 00:15:35,633 YOU GOT IT? 232 00:15:35,633 --> 00:15:38,267 I HAD TO BUY TWO SEATS ON THE PLANE, 233 00:15:38,267 --> 00:15:41,100 ON TOP OF EVERYTHING. 234 00:15:41,100 --> 00:15:44,467 THIS IS MY NIGHTMARE. 235 00:15:44,467 --> 00:15:50,067 I HOPE THIS IS ALL GOING TO BE WORTH IT. 236 00:15:57,467 --> 00:16:00,067 THIS TRIP HAS BEEN HORRIBLE. 237 00:16:00,067 --> 00:16:05,400 I CAN'T BELIEVE WE ARE FINALLY HERE IN HOUSTON. 238 00:16:05,400 --> 00:16:08,700 RIGHT NOW I AM HEADED TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S OFFICE 239 00:16:08,700 --> 00:16:10,767 FOR THE FIRST TIME, SO THIS IS PRETTY SCARY. 240 00:16:12,967 --> 00:16:16,700 I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO EXPECT. 241 00:16:20,900 --> 00:16:22,700 WHAT IF HE SAYS HE CAN'T HELP ME? 242 00:16:22,700 --> 00:16:24,700 Woman: MS. RACHDI? 243 00:16:24,700 --> 00:16:27,233 WHAT IF HE DOES AND I FAIL? 244 00:16:27,233 --> 00:16:31,533 I HAVE A LOT OF ANXIETY AND FEAR ABOUT THIS. 245 00:16:39,133 --> 00:16:43,233 I AM MORTIFIED. 246 00:16:43,233 --> 00:16:47,933 I REALLY WISH THIS WASN'T TRUE. I WISH THIS WASN'T MY WEIGHT. 247 00:16:47,933 --> 00:16:49,533 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? 248 00:16:49,533 --> 00:16:50,800 GOOD. GOOD. 249 00:16:50,800 --> 00:16:52,300 I'M DR. NOWZARADAN. 250 00:16:52,300 --> 00:16:53,767 DOCTOR, I'M AMBER. 251 00:16:53,767 --> 00:16:55,467 AMBER. 252 00:16:55,467 --> 00:16:59,367 SO, YOU ARE ALMOST 660 POUNDS. 253 00:16:59,367 --> 00:17:00,633 MM-HMM. 254 00:17:00,633 --> 00:17:02,933 WHAT SEEMS TO BE YOUR BIGGEST CHALLENGE 255 00:17:02,933 --> 00:17:04,600 WITH YOUR EATING HABIT? 256 00:17:04,600 --> 00:17:07,767 I OVEREAT ANYTIME I EAT. 257 00:17:07,767 --> 00:17:10,600 I KNOW WHAT'S GOOD FOR ME, BUT I EAT TOO MUCH. 258 00:17:10,600 --> 00:17:12,700 YOU JUST DON'T GET FULL? 259 00:17:12,700 --> 00:17:14,600 NO. I NEVER GET FULL. 260 00:17:14,600 --> 00:17:16,733 IF YOU SNACK, WHAT DO YOU SNACK ON? 261 00:17:16,733 --> 00:17:19,333 ANYTHING YOU CAN FIND THAT'S EASY TO GET AT. 262 00:17:19,333 --> 00:17:23,167 YEAH, I LIKE ICE CREAM. I LIKE ANYTHING, REALLY. 263 00:17:23,167 --> 00:17:25,300 WHO BUYS ICE CREAM AND ALL THOSE THINGS? 264 00:17:25,300 --> 00:17:27,633 MY PARENTS ARE THE ONES WHO DO THE SHOPPING. 265 00:17:27,633 --> 00:17:31,067 SO THEY ARE THE ONES ENABLING YOU? 266 00:17:32,800 --> 00:17:34,933 THEM AND MY BOYFRIEND. 267 00:17:34,933 --> 00:17:37,133 YOU GET ANY EXERCISE? 268 00:17:37,133 --> 00:17:39,867 UH, NOT REALLY. 269 00:17:39,867 --> 00:17:40,967 I HAVE A HARD TIME WALKING 270 00:17:40,967 --> 00:17:42,600 'CAUSE I CAN'T GET MY FEET TOGETHER. 271 00:17:42,600 --> 00:17:44,133 I HAVE A REALLY HARD TIME 272 00:17:44,133 --> 00:17:46,867 JUST WITH THE WAY MY WEIGHT IS STORED. 273 00:17:46,867 --> 00:17:49,100 LIKE, IT'S DOWN HERE AND HERE. 274 00:17:49,100 --> 00:17:51,733 THIS IS WHAT WE CALL LIPO-LYMPHEDEMA, 275 00:17:51,733 --> 00:17:55,067 AND THERE'S NO CURE FOR THIS EXCEPT WEIGHT LOSS. 276 00:17:55,067 --> 00:17:56,933 DO YOU THINK YOU CAN HELP ME, DOC? 277 00:17:56,933 --> 00:18:02,733 WHAT IS THE POINT, LIKE, YOU'D BE WILLING TO DO SURGERY? 278 00:18:02,733 --> 00:18:06,833 WELL, YOU HAVE TO BE PROACTIVE FOR YOURSELF, OKAY? 279 00:18:11,600 --> 00:18:14,333 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS IS A BAD SITUATION. 280 00:18:14,333 --> 00:18:18,433 AMBER IS SURROUNDED BY ENABLERS WITHIN FAMILY. 281 00:18:18,433 --> 00:18:23,333 SHE HAS TO BE WILLING TO MAKE CHANGES THAT SHE NEEDS. 282 00:18:23,333 --> 00:18:25,733 I WANT TO SEE SOME WEIGHT LOSS FROM HER 283 00:18:25,733 --> 00:18:29,067 BEFORE I EVEN CONSIDER HER FOR ANY KIND OF SURGERY. 284 00:18:29,067 --> 00:18:32,267 WE ALL NEED TO DEVELOP A NEW DYNAMIC 285 00:18:32,267 --> 00:18:36,067 IF SURGERY IS GONNA BE AN OPTION FOR AMBER. 286 00:18:36,067 --> 00:18:38,533 IF SHE DOES NOT CHANGE THE DYNAMIC 287 00:18:38,533 --> 00:18:40,067 AND LOSE SOME WEIGHT, 288 00:18:40,067 --> 00:18:41,733 I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO HELP HER. 289 00:18:41,733 --> 00:18:45,067 I NEED YOU TO LOSE 20 POUNDS OVER THE NEXT MONTH 290 00:18:45,067 --> 00:18:47,400 TO SHOW ME THAT YOU CAN DO THIS. 291 00:18:47,400 --> 00:18:51,200 THIS IS SOMETHING THAT EVERYBODY HAS TO WORK TOWARD IT. 292 00:18:51,200 --> 00:18:52,200 OKAY? 293 00:18:52,200 --> 00:18:54,733 THAT WOULD BE GREAT. THANK YOU. 294 00:18:54,733 --> 00:18:57,600 IF AMBER'S FAMILY DOES NOT STOP ENABLING HER, 295 00:18:57,600 --> 00:18:59,067 SHE WILL DIE. 296 00:19:03,633 --> 00:19:07,733 Amber: I KNOW I NEED TO DO THIS. 297 00:19:07,733 --> 00:19:11,567 THIS IS MY LAST CHANCE, AND I'M GOING TO TAKE IT. 298 00:19:11,567 --> 00:19:13,767 I HAVE TO. 299 00:19:34,400 --> 00:19:37,267 THIS MOVE IS BIG, 300 00:19:37,267 --> 00:19:40,133 BUT IF I HOPE TO RECEIVE THE CARE I NEED TO HELP ME 301 00:19:40,133 --> 00:19:42,933 DEAL WITH THIS KIND OF HOLE I'VE DUG FOR MYSELF, 302 00:19:42,933 --> 00:19:44,300 I HAVE TO BE NEAR MY DOCTOR. 303 00:19:44,300 --> 00:19:46,567 Omar: DO YOU HAVE ANYTHING THAT'S READY TO GO? 304 00:19:46,567 --> 00:19:49,333 THAT BOX RIGHT THERE IS READY TO GO. 305 00:19:49,333 --> 00:19:51,667 THIS ONE WILL BE IN A SECOND. 306 00:19:51,667 --> 00:19:55,833 I FEEL BAD THAT EVERYBODY HAS TO UPROOT THEIR LIVES FOR ME, 307 00:19:55,833 --> 00:19:59,067 BUT I'M THANKFUL THEY WILL BE THERE FOR ME. 308 00:19:59,067 --> 00:20:00,333 ARE YOU READY? 309 00:20:00,333 --> 00:20:01,467 I GUESS SO. 310 00:20:01,467 --> 00:20:03,000 HOW DO YOU FEEL? 311 00:20:04,467 --> 00:20:08,333 THIS IS MY BEST SHOT AT GETTING HEALTHY. 312 00:20:08,333 --> 00:20:09,533 HEY, DAD. 313 00:20:09,533 --> 00:20:12,133 I WANT TO FINISH COLLEGE. I WANT TO DRIVE AGAIN. 314 00:20:12,133 --> 00:20:15,267 I HOPE TO HAVE A FAMILY OF MY OWN. 315 00:20:15,267 --> 00:20:18,567 IF I DON'T GET SURGERY OR IF I FAIL, 316 00:20:18,567 --> 00:20:22,200 THIS WILL HAVE MESSED UP A LOT OF PEOPLE'S LIVES. 317 00:20:22,200 --> 00:20:24,333 I JUST HOPE THIS IS THE RIGHT DECISION 318 00:20:24,333 --> 00:20:27,733 AND IT'S NOT TOO LATE TO MAKE A CHANGE. 319 00:20:41,133 --> 00:20:45,400 IT'S DAY 3, AND WE ARE IN CENTRAL UTAH. 320 00:20:47,200 --> 00:20:49,133 THIS TRIP HAS BEEN HARD SO FAR. 321 00:20:49,133 --> 00:20:52,867 LOOKING AHEAD SOMETIMES CAN BE KIND OF DAUNTING. 322 00:20:52,867 --> 00:20:55,167 I HAVE GOT A LONG WAY LEFT TO GO. 323 00:20:58,700 --> 00:21:00,467 [ SIGHS ] 324 00:21:02,933 --> 00:21:05,067 YES. 325 00:21:05,067 --> 00:21:08,467 [ VOMITS ] 326 00:21:10,067 --> 00:21:12,467 I CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS TO BE OVER. 327 00:21:26,267 --> 00:21:27,600 WE'RE HERE. 328 00:21:29,633 --> 00:21:31,933 THIS TRIP HAS BEEN HORRIBLE. 329 00:21:31,933 --> 00:21:37,833 I JUST WANT TO GET A BED AND LAY DOWN. 330 00:21:37,833 --> 00:21:40,300 OH, I FEEL A.C. ALREADY. 331 00:21:40,300 --> 00:21:41,167 YEAH. 332 00:21:41,167 --> 00:21:44,800 HOW'S THAT? 333 00:21:44,800 --> 00:21:46,167 YOU GOOD WITH THAT? 334 00:21:46,167 --> 00:21:47,600 Rowdy: THAT'LL WORK. 335 00:21:47,600 --> 00:21:50,900 OKAY, SO, IF YOU'LL JUST EXCUSE ME, FELLAS, 336 00:21:50,900 --> 00:21:53,233 I'M GONNA MAKE USE OF THIS. 337 00:21:55,267 --> 00:21:56,867 [ SIGHS ] 338 00:21:56,867 --> 00:21:58,633 I'M IN A NEW PLACE AWAY FROM HOME, 339 00:21:58,633 --> 00:22:02,067 AND I HAVE TO ACHIEVE THIS WEIGHT LOSS. 340 00:22:04,533 --> 00:22:08,200 IT'S A LOT, AND I FEEL SICK THINKING ABOUT IT. 341 00:22:08,200 --> 00:22:09,967 Patty: IS AMBER OKAY? 342 00:22:11,733 --> 00:22:13,200 DO YOU NEED A PAPER TOWEL, HONEY? 343 00:22:17,067 --> 00:22:19,500 Amber: [ RETCHES ] IT'S FINE, IT'S FINE. 344 00:22:19,500 --> 00:22:20,867 IT'S JUST BILE. 345 00:22:20,867 --> 00:22:23,233 IT'S NOT FOOD. WE'RE FINE. 346 00:22:23,233 --> 00:22:26,500 I'VE BEEN REALLY STRESSED OUT, 347 00:22:26,500 --> 00:22:29,500 AND I THINK JUST A LOT OF STRESS 348 00:22:29,500 --> 00:22:32,400 AND, I DON'T KNOW, BEING ON THE ROAD, 349 00:22:32,400 --> 00:22:35,733 AND I THINK I'M JUST OVERWHELMED. 350 00:22:41,067 --> 00:22:44,533 I'VE ALWAYS GONE TO FOOD FOR SOLACE, FOR COMFORT. 351 00:22:44,533 --> 00:22:47,500 I CAN'T DO THAT ANYMORE. 352 00:22:47,500 --> 00:22:49,900 I HAVE TO REPROGRAM MYSELF, 353 00:22:49,900 --> 00:22:53,067 AND I HAVE TO MAKE THE CHANGE NOW 354 00:22:53,067 --> 00:22:57,600 IF THE DOCTOR'S GOING TO KEEP HELPING ME MAKING THE CHANGE. 355 00:22:57,600 --> 00:22:59,433 I KNOW I CAN DO IT. 356 00:22:59,433 --> 00:23:03,067 I WENT AHEAD AND I COOKED MYSELF DINNER TONIGHT. 357 00:23:04,733 --> 00:23:07,433 ROWDY WENT AHEAD AND GOT FAST FOOD. 358 00:23:07,433 --> 00:23:11,133 I HAVE TO KIND OF LEARN TO OVERCOME TEMPTATION, 359 00:23:11,133 --> 00:23:14,633 SO IT WAS GOOD PRACTICE. 360 00:23:14,633 --> 00:23:16,067 FOR THE FIRST TIME, 361 00:23:16,067 --> 00:23:18,067 I'M EATING HEALTHY AND IN LESSER PORTIONS. 362 00:23:18,067 --> 00:23:20,800 I'M GETTING OUT AND EXERCISING, TOO. 363 00:23:20,800 --> 00:23:24,633 STARTING TO WALK AGAIN HAS BEEN DIFFICULT. 364 00:23:24,633 --> 00:23:26,833 IT HURTS, AND IT'S HARD. 365 00:23:26,833 --> 00:23:30,933 BEING MORE ACTIVE HAS BEEN MY PRIMARY FOCUS, 366 00:23:30,933 --> 00:23:34,267 'CAUSE I KNOW THAT NOT JUST DIETING, BUT EXERCISE 367 00:23:34,267 --> 00:23:37,100 ARE HOW I'M GONNA BEAT THIS. 368 00:23:39,133 --> 00:23:41,800 I'M EXHAUSTED, 369 00:23:41,800 --> 00:23:44,367 BUT I'M GOING TO DO WHAT IT TAKES 370 00:23:44,367 --> 00:23:45,933 TO GET THIS SURGERY. 371 00:23:53,067 --> 00:23:54,067 Woman: RACHDI? 372 00:23:54,067 --> 00:23:57,067 OKAY, WE'LL GO FIRST. 373 00:23:57,067 --> 00:24:00,067 I HAVEN'T BEEN ON A SCALE SINCE I SAW THE DOCTOR LAST MONTH. 374 00:24:00,067 --> 00:24:04,833 I KNOW I'VE MADE GOOD PROGRESS. I JUST DON'T KNOW HOW MUCH. 375 00:24:06,067 --> 00:24:07,467 I HOPE IT'S ENOUGH. 376 00:24:11,533 --> 00:24:13,300 GOOD, AMBIE. 377 00:24:13,300 --> 00:24:16,200 I'M HAPPY THAT THE SCALE'S REFLECTING THAT PROGRESS. 378 00:24:16,200 --> 00:24:21,200 I HOPE THE DOCTOR AGREES AND APPROVES ME FOR SURGERY. 379 00:24:21,200 --> 00:24:23,567 HELLO. HEY, THERE. 380 00:24:23,567 --> 00:24:24,833 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? GOOD. 381 00:24:24,833 --> 00:24:27,400 SO, YOU FIGURED OUT WHAT TO DO TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT? 382 00:24:27,400 --> 00:24:29,967 ABSOLUTELY. 383 00:24:29,967 --> 00:24:31,667 AND HOW IS YOUR ACTIVITY? 384 00:24:31,667 --> 00:24:34,700 WE'VE RECENTLY QUADRUPLED THE LENGTH THAT I'M WALKING. 385 00:24:34,700 --> 00:24:36,133 OKAY. 386 00:24:36,133 --> 00:24:39,067 Dr. Nowzaradan: AMBER LOST 17 POUNDS, 387 00:24:39,067 --> 00:24:42,067 AND THIS IS CLOSE ENOUGH FOR ME TO SEE 388 00:24:42,067 --> 00:24:45,767 THAT SHE'S WILLING AND ABLE TO MAKE CHANGES TO BE SUCCESSFUL 389 00:24:45,767 --> 00:24:47,333 WITH THE BYPASS SURGERY. 390 00:24:47,333 --> 00:24:51,533 EVERYTHING SEEMS LIKE GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 391 00:24:51,533 --> 00:24:56,667 YOU HAVE LOST ENOUGH WEIGHT, AND YOU'RE READY FOR SURGERY. 392 00:24:58,667 --> 00:25:00,233 THAT'S AWESOME. OKAY. 393 00:25:00,233 --> 00:25:01,367 EXCITED? 394 00:25:01,367 --> 00:25:03,500 UH...YEAH. 395 00:25:03,500 --> 00:25:05,433 I'M A LITTLE SCARED OF BEING CUT OPEN. 396 00:25:05,433 --> 00:25:07,300 YEAH, IT IS SCARY. 397 00:25:07,300 --> 00:25:11,300 BUT THIS WILL BE A WHOLE NEW OPPORTUNITY 398 00:25:11,300 --> 00:25:14,567 TO GET YOU DOWN TO YOUR IDEAL BODY WEIGHT, SO... 399 00:25:14,567 --> 00:25:15,800 AWESOME. 400 00:25:15,800 --> 00:25:18,467 I'M GONNA SCHEDULE YOU FOR SURGERY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE, 401 00:25:18,467 --> 00:25:20,567 OKAY? 402 00:25:20,567 --> 00:25:22,367 ALL RIGHT. OKAY. 403 00:25:25,967 --> 00:25:28,067 WE'RE GETTING GOALS. 404 00:25:28,067 --> 00:25:29,167 MM-HMM. 405 00:25:29,167 --> 00:25:33,067 IT'S A MAJOR OPERATION. WHAT IF I FAIL? 406 00:25:34,533 --> 00:25:38,067 ALL OF THESE THOUGHTS ARE JUST HITTING ME ALL AT ONCE. 407 00:25:38,067 --> 00:25:42,467 I'M AFRAID OF DISAPPOINTING MYSELF AND MY FAMILY. 408 00:25:42,467 --> 00:25:44,900 IF I ASKED MY DAD, "ARE YOU DISAPPOINTED IN ME RIGHT NOW?" 409 00:25:44,900 --> 00:25:47,333 HE'D BE LIKE, "NO! WHERE WOULD YOU EVER GET THAT IDEA?" 410 00:25:47,333 --> 00:25:48,533 BUT HOW COULD HE NOT BE. 411 00:25:48,533 --> 00:25:51,867 LIKE, OF COURSE THEY'RE DISAPPOINTED IN ME. 412 00:25:51,867 --> 00:25:54,067 THEY WILL NEVER, EVER, EVER ADMIT IT, BUT THEY ARE. 413 00:25:54,067 --> 00:25:57,833 THEY ACT SO PROUD OF ME FOR EVERY LITTLE VICTORY, 414 00:25:57,833 --> 00:26:00,933 BUT ALL I'M DOING IS DISASTER CLEANUP. 415 00:26:00,933 --> 00:26:03,667 I HAVE DRAGGED MY FAMILY 416 00:26:03,667 --> 00:26:07,800 FROM THE PACIFIC TO THE GULF COAST. 417 00:26:07,800 --> 00:26:09,867 I'VE BEEN DOING ALL SORTS OF BAD THINGS 418 00:26:09,867 --> 00:26:12,500 TO ALL THE PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT JUST TO GET THE HELP I NEED, 419 00:26:12,500 --> 00:26:13,733 AND THAT'S REALLY SELFISH. 420 00:26:18,167 --> 00:26:20,667 WHAT IF THIS ALL ENDS UP FOR NOTHING 421 00:26:20,667 --> 00:26:23,533 AND I'VE WASTED EVERYONE'S TIME AND EFFORT? 422 00:26:23,533 --> 00:26:28,267 I KNOW I SHOULD BE HAPPY, 423 00:26:28,267 --> 00:26:30,500 BUT I'M FEELING REALLY STRESSED OUT 424 00:26:30,500 --> 00:26:31,900 AND ANXIOUS RIGHT NOW. 425 00:26:41,067 --> 00:26:42,933 Amber: I MIGHT NEED A HAND. 426 00:26:42,933 --> 00:26:44,700 THANKS. 427 00:26:47,267 --> 00:26:51,100 I'M STILL REALLY NERVOUS ABOUT SURGERY. 428 00:26:57,600 --> 00:27:00,167 Omar: IT'S, YOU KNOW, A LITTLE WORRISOME, HONESTLY. 429 00:27:00,167 --> 00:27:02,067 IT'S MY SISTER, AND IF ANYTHING BAD 430 00:27:02,067 --> 00:27:03,433 HAPPENED TO HER, IT WOULD KILL ME. 431 00:27:03,433 --> 00:27:04,467 HELLO. 432 00:27:04,467 --> 00:27:05,600 Amber: HI, DOCTOR. 433 00:27:05,600 --> 00:27:07,500 HOW ARE Y'ALL DOING? Abe: HI. HOW ARE YOU? 434 00:27:07,500 --> 00:27:09,100 DOING THE GASTRIC BYPASS TODAY, 435 00:27:09,100 --> 00:27:11,267 AND GONNA BE READY TO LOSE SOME WEIGHT. 436 00:27:11,267 --> 00:27:12,667 OKAY. 437 00:27:12,667 --> 00:27:13,833 ALL RIGHT. OKAY. 438 00:27:15,400 --> 00:27:16,833 I'M PRAYING FOR YOU. 439 00:27:16,833 --> 00:27:18,567 THANKS. BE GOOD, DAD. 440 00:27:18,567 --> 00:27:19,567 WE LOVE YOU. 441 00:27:19,567 --> 00:27:20,967 MY HEAD IS SPINNING. 442 00:27:20,967 --> 00:27:23,700 I SHOULD BE SUPER EXCITED ABOUT SURGERY. 443 00:27:23,700 --> 00:27:26,467 LIKE, THIS IS WHAT I CAME DOWN HERE FOR. 444 00:27:26,467 --> 00:27:27,900 BUT I'M SO TERRIFIED. 445 00:27:27,900 --> 00:27:30,167 I KNOW THAT THE CONSEQUENCES ARE REAL. 446 00:27:30,167 --> 00:27:31,500 I COULD DIE. 447 00:27:31,500 --> 00:27:35,667 I'M AFRAID OF A LOT OF THINGS. I'M AFRAID OF FAILING. 448 00:27:35,667 --> 00:27:38,667 I'M AFRAID OF SOMETHING GOING WRONG. 449 00:27:38,667 --> 00:27:41,233 I'M AFRAID THIS WILL ALL BE FOR NOTHING. 450 00:27:43,833 --> 00:27:47,833 BUT I CAN'T LET THIS FEAR AND ANXIETY BEAT ME. 451 00:27:52,300 --> 00:27:55,467 Man: TAKE SOME NICE, DEEP BREATHS HERE, OKAY? 452 00:27:55,467 --> 00:27:56,967 BIG BREATHS. 453 00:27:56,967 --> 00:28:01,367 Dr. Nowzaradan: AMBER IS HAVING HER WEIGHT-LOSS SURGERY TODAY. 454 00:28:01,367 --> 00:28:04,333 WITH A PATIENT THIS SIZE, 455 00:28:04,333 --> 00:28:08,533 A COMPLICATION CAN BE A LIFE-THREATENING SITUATION, 456 00:28:08,533 --> 00:28:12,333 SO WE HAVE TO BE VERY CAREFUL. 457 00:28:12,333 --> 00:28:16,933 ALL RIGHT, EVERYTHING IS OKAY TO DO GASTRIC BYPASS ON AMBER. 458 00:28:16,933 --> 00:28:21,767 GASTRIC BYPASS IS A VERY EFFECTIVE TOOL 459 00:28:21,767 --> 00:28:23,800 FOR WEIGHT LOSS. 460 00:28:23,800 --> 00:28:25,967 WE'RE GONNA CHANGE THE DIGESTIVE SYSTEM. 461 00:28:28,300 --> 00:28:31,500 USUALLY, STOMACH IS AS BIG AS THE SIZE OF A FOOTBALL. 462 00:28:31,500 --> 00:28:35,067 WE'RE GONNA MAKE IT AS SMALL AS A BASEBALL. 463 00:28:35,067 --> 00:28:38,467 AND BY DOING THAT, WE'RE GONNA LIMIT 464 00:28:38,467 --> 00:28:40,833 THE CAPACITY OF THE EATING, AND THE PATIENT 465 00:28:40,833 --> 00:28:42,767 WILL BE ABLE TO GET FULL REAL QUICK. 466 00:28:44,433 --> 00:28:47,333 Patty: WE WANT AMBER TO HAVE A NORMAL LIFE, 467 00:28:47,333 --> 00:28:49,967 GET MARRIED, HAVE KIDS, HAVE A FAMILY. 468 00:28:49,967 --> 00:28:52,333 THAT'S WHAT I WANT FOR HER AS A MOM. 469 00:28:52,333 --> 00:28:55,867 Dr. Nowzaradan: THIS IS AMBER'S LAST CHANCE TO LOSE WEIGHT. 470 00:28:55,867 --> 00:28:58,900 ALL RIGHT. THAT LOOKS GOOD. 471 00:29:03,367 --> 00:29:06,233 AND WE'VE FINISHED THE SURGERY. 472 00:29:06,233 --> 00:29:10,133 WE'RE GONNA GO AHEAD AND MOVE HER TO RECOVERY ROOM. 473 00:29:12,333 --> 00:29:15,400 AMBER, WE'RE IN THE RECOVERY ROOM, OKAY? 474 00:29:15,400 --> 00:29:16,467 PERFECT. 475 00:29:16,467 --> 00:29:18,500 AMBER IS DOING OKAY, 476 00:29:18,500 --> 00:29:20,400 AND I'M HOPING THAT SHE'LL LOSE 477 00:29:20,400 --> 00:29:22,733 20 TO 30 POUNDS IN THE FIRST MONTH. 478 00:29:22,733 --> 00:29:24,467 HI, HONEY. 479 00:29:24,467 --> 00:29:26,200 HEY, MAMA. 480 00:29:26,200 --> 00:29:27,933 HOW ARE YOU DOING? IT'S GOOD TO SEE YOU. 481 00:29:27,933 --> 00:29:29,800 NICE TO SEE YOU, TOO, HONEY. 482 00:29:31,267 --> 00:29:33,667 Patty: RIGHT NOW IT'S A NEW BEGINNING FOR HER, 483 00:29:33,667 --> 00:29:36,700 AND I JUST -- WE'RE HAPPY. 484 00:29:36,700 --> 00:29:38,300 OKAY. 485 00:29:38,300 --> 00:29:39,467 LOVE YOU GUYS. 486 00:29:39,467 --> 00:29:41,800 LOVE YOU, TOO. LOVE YOU MORE. 487 00:29:53,433 --> 00:29:54,533 I'LL CARRY MY PURSE 488 00:29:54,533 --> 00:29:55,967 AND I GUESS THE BACKPACK IF YOU WANT ME TO. 489 00:29:55,967 --> 00:29:57,333 THE BACKPACK FEELS PRETTY HEAVY. 490 00:29:57,333 --> 00:30:00,167 NO, THE BACKPACK, I WILL TAKE CARE OF IT. 491 00:30:00,167 --> 00:30:03,600 Amber: I'M REALLY GLAD TO BE GOING HOME AND TO START ADJUSTING BACK. 492 00:30:03,600 --> 00:30:06,833 I KNOW I HAVE A LOT OF WORK AHEAD OF ME. 493 00:30:06,833 --> 00:30:10,400 THIS ISN'T GONNA BE EASY. 494 00:30:10,400 --> 00:30:13,533 I'M GOING HOME TO A DIFFERENT WORLD. 495 00:30:13,533 --> 00:30:17,433 I CAN NO LONGER GO TO MY HAPPY PLACE WITH FOOD. 496 00:30:17,433 --> 00:30:20,767 IT'S A LITTLE SCARY. NOT GONNA LIE. 497 00:30:20,767 --> 00:30:24,000 ON TOP OF EVERYTHING, NOW THAT I'VE HAD SURGERY, 498 00:30:24,000 --> 00:30:26,667 MY PARENTS ARE GOING BACK TO PORTLAND. 499 00:30:26,667 --> 00:30:29,333 IT'S A LOT OF CHANGE AT ONCE -- 500 00:30:29,333 --> 00:30:31,233 TO HAVE HAD THIS SURGERY 501 00:30:31,233 --> 00:30:34,200 AND FOR MY PARENTS TO BE LEAVING ME. 502 00:30:34,200 --> 00:30:36,500 I'M JUST KIND OF A COWARD. 503 00:30:36,500 --> 00:30:38,200 I DON'T FUNCTION WELL BY MYSELF. 504 00:30:38,200 --> 00:30:40,500 I ALWAYS NEED A REAL GROWN-UP HOLDING MY HAND. 505 00:30:40,500 --> 00:30:43,867 HI, PUPPY. 506 00:30:43,867 --> 00:30:47,333 ALL THAT STRESS IS THERE IN THE BACK OF MY MIND, 507 00:30:47,333 --> 00:30:51,433 BUT I CAN'T GIVE IN OR LET THAT FEAR AND ANXIETY TAKE OVER, 508 00:30:51,433 --> 00:30:54,200 OR I KNOW I'LL WANT TO RUN BACK TO FOOD, 509 00:30:54,200 --> 00:30:57,067 AND I KNOW THAT'S NOT AN OPTION RIGHT NOW. 510 00:30:57,067 --> 00:31:00,433 I'M JUST TRYING TO TAKE ONE DAY AT A TIME 511 00:31:00,433 --> 00:31:02,767 AND TRY TO NOT GET OVERWHELMED 512 00:31:02,767 --> 00:31:05,567 BY EVERYTHING GOING ON RIGHT NOW. 513 00:31:18,667 --> 00:31:21,300 Dr. Nowzaradan: AMBER CAME TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM 514 00:31:21,300 --> 00:31:24,500 WITH AN IRREGULAR HEARTBEAT AND CHEST PAIN. 515 00:31:24,500 --> 00:31:28,500 IT IS POSSIBLE THAT SHE COULD BE HAVING A HEART ATTACK, 516 00:31:28,500 --> 00:31:32,567 SO WE HAVE TO DO SOME TESTING TO MAKE SURE EVERYTHING'S OKAY. 517 00:31:32,567 --> 00:31:34,500 THIS IS A SERIOUS SITUATION. 518 00:31:34,500 --> 00:31:40,300 A PATIENT IN HER SIZE IS ALREADY PUSHING THE HEART TO THE LIMIT. 519 00:31:40,300 --> 00:31:45,567 ANY CARDIAC EVENT COULD BE TOO DIFFICULT TO STOP. 520 00:31:45,567 --> 00:31:46,767 WE NEED TO FIND OUT 521 00:31:46,767 --> 00:31:49,100 WHAT'S GOING ON WITH HER IMMEDIATELY. 522 00:31:54,100 --> 00:31:58,500 Dr. Nowzaradan: AMBER CAME IN EARLIER WITH SEVERE CHEST PAIN. 523 00:31:58,500 --> 00:32:02,433 HER EKG AND ALL THE LAB WORK TURNED OUT TO BE NORMAL. 524 00:32:02,433 --> 00:32:06,233 SHE APPARENTLY HAD AN ANXIETY ATTACK. 525 00:32:06,233 --> 00:32:10,167 SHE ALWAYS USED FOOD TO COPE WITH STRESS AND ANXIETY. 526 00:32:10,167 --> 00:32:13,967 NOW THE FOOD IS NOT SO MUCH AN OPTION, 527 00:32:13,967 --> 00:32:16,633 SHE HAS NO COPING MECHANISM. 528 00:32:16,633 --> 00:32:20,067 THAT IS AFFECTING HER HEALTH. 529 00:32:20,067 --> 00:32:23,167 SHE NEEDS TO LEARN TO DEAL WITH HER FEELINGS. 530 00:32:23,167 --> 00:32:25,833 I'M GOING TO SEND HER TO A THERAPIST 531 00:32:25,833 --> 00:32:28,500 TO HELP HER DEAL WITH THESE ISSUES. 532 00:32:28,500 --> 00:32:31,067 Amber: I'M UNDER A LOT OF STRESS. 533 00:32:31,067 --> 00:32:34,133 I REALIZE IF I DON'T DEAL WITH IT NOW, 534 00:32:34,133 --> 00:32:36,633 THE SURGERY WILL HAVE BEEN A WASTE, 535 00:32:36,633 --> 00:32:39,900 AND I'LL FAIL, AND I'LL LET EVERYONE DOWN AGAIN. 536 00:32:50,100 --> 00:32:52,733 THE DOCTOR TOLD ME WHEN I WENT TO THE E.R. 537 00:32:52,733 --> 00:32:54,167 THAT I'VE GOT SOMETHING 538 00:32:54,167 --> 00:32:56,900 CALLED A PREMATURE ATRIAL CONTRACTION. 539 00:32:58,933 --> 00:33:01,433 WHICH IS INSANE THAT MY ANXIETY'S HAVING 540 00:33:01,433 --> 00:33:03,900 SUCH A HUGE PHYSICAL MANIFESTATION ON ME. 541 00:33:03,900 --> 00:33:05,533 AND NOW THAT I DON'T HAVE EATING, 542 00:33:05,533 --> 00:33:07,500 MY ANXIETY IS JUST KIND OF OUT OF CONTROL. 543 00:33:07,500 --> 00:33:10,533 SO I'M HOPING THAT COUNSELING WILL HELP ME. 544 00:33:10,533 --> 00:33:14,133 HI! AMBER, COME ON BACK. 545 00:33:14,133 --> 00:33:17,667 Lakhani: SO, TELL ME A LITTLE BIT ABOUT YOU 546 00:33:17,667 --> 00:33:20,633 AND KIND OF HOW YOU GOT HERE TODAY. 547 00:33:20,633 --> 00:33:22,200 Amber: I KIND OF FELL APART, 548 00:33:22,200 --> 00:33:24,067 STARTED HAVING REALLY BAD ANXIETY. 549 00:33:24,067 --> 00:33:27,067 SO, WHAT HAS BEEN THE CAUSE OF YOUR ANXIETY? 550 00:33:27,067 --> 00:33:28,267 IN GENERAL, I FEEL LIKE 551 00:33:28,267 --> 00:33:30,400 I'M A PRETTY DISAPPOINTING KID TO HAVE, 552 00:33:30,400 --> 00:33:32,367 AND I THINK I WOULD HAVE A HARD TIME AS A PARENT 553 00:33:32,367 --> 00:33:33,833 COPING WITH HAVING A KID LIKE ME. 554 00:33:33,833 --> 00:33:36,067 IS THAT PRESSURE THAT YOU'RE PUTTING ON YOURSELF, 555 00:33:36,067 --> 00:33:37,633 OR DOES THAT COME FROM YOUR FAMILY? 556 00:33:37,633 --> 00:33:38,700 I DON'T KNOW. 557 00:33:38,700 --> 00:33:39,967 [ Voice breaking ] I'M NOT SUPER THRILLED 558 00:33:39,967 --> 00:33:42,233 THAT I WASTED ALL OF MY YOUTH 559 00:33:42,233 --> 00:33:45,067 BEING IMMOBILE AND MASSIVE AND, LIKE, 560 00:33:45,067 --> 00:33:46,633 TOO FAT TO KIND OF ENJOY IT. 561 00:33:46,633 --> 00:33:48,833 [ SIGHS ] LIKE, I'M REALLY MAD RIGHT NOW. 562 00:33:48,833 --> 00:33:51,733 LIKE, I'M MAD AT MYSELF. LIKE, WHY DID I LET THAT HAPPEN? 563 00:33:51,733 --> 00:33:55,200 AND I CAN'T DO ANYTHING ABOUT IT. 564 00:33:55,200 --> 00:33:58,367 LIKE, I CAN'T MAKE IT BETTER. 565 00:33:58,367 --> 00:34:00,267 YOU ARE MAKING IT BETTER, 566 00:34:00,267 --> 00:34:04,533 BECAUSE YOU'RE CHOOSING TODAY TO MAKE A DIFFERENT CHOICE. 567 00:34:04,533 --> 00:34:08,433 I'M MAKING A GOOD CHOICE TO GET TO A GOOD PLAN "B." 568 00:34:08,433 --> 00:34:12,133 IT'S GONNA MAKE ME HAVE A LIFE, BUT IT'S NOT THE LIFE I WANT. 569 00:34:12,133 --> 00:34:13,400 YOU DON'T KNOW THAT. 570 00:34:13,400 --> 00:34:14,933 YOU KNOW WHAT? AND IT'S OKAY. 571 00:34:14,933 --> 00:34:16,267 IT'S OKAY TO BE MAD. 572 00:34:16,267 --> 00:34:17,767 AT SOME POINT, 573 00:34:17,767 --> 00:34:21,133 YOU HAVE TO LET GO OF THAT ANGER. 574 00:34:21,133 --> 00:34:22,700 YOUR PAST IS YOUR PAST, 575 00:34:22,700 --> 00:34:25,433 AND IF YOU CONTINUE TO LIVE IN THE PAST, 576 00:34:25,433 --> 00:34:27,567 IT HINDERS YOUR PROGRESS. 577 00:34:27,567 --> 00:34:32,433 THINK ABOUT JUST BEING ABLE TO NOT HOLD ON TO THAT. 578 00:34:32,433 --> 00:34:34,100 YOU'RE GOING IN THE RIGHT DIRECTION. 579 00:34:37,700 --> 00:34:38,700 THANK YOU. 580 00:34:38,700 --> 00:34:40,067 I THINK ALL THIS TIME, 581 00:34:40,067 --> 00:34:42,367 I THOUGHT I WAS AFRAID OF LETTING MY PARENTS DOWN, 582 00:34:42,367 --> 00:34:47,200 BUT MY ANXIETY IS MORE ABOUT ME THAN ANYONE ELSE. 583 00:34:47,200 --> 00:34:53,233 I'M THE ONE CRITICIZING MYSELF, WHO VIEWS HERSELF AS WORTHLESS, 584 00:34:53,233 --> 00:34:55,233 AND I THINK OF MYSELF AS A FAILURE, 585 00:34:55,233 --> 00:34:58,600 BUT I'M BECOMING THE PERSON I WANT TO BE, 586 00:34:58,600 --> 00:35:01,467 AND THAT PERSON IS NOT A FAILURE. 587 00:35:01,467 --> 00:35:04,767 THE SECOND I DECIDED TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT MY LIFE, 588 00:35:04,767 --> 00:35:05,733 I CHANGED, 589 00:35:05,733 --> 00:35:08,067 AND I AM NOT GOING TO FAIL AT THIS. 590 00:35:19,500 --> 00:35:22,833 SINCE SURGERY, I'VE DROPPED QUITE A BIT OF WEIGHT, 591 00:35:22,833 --> 00:35:24,933 AND MY LEGS DROPPED A LOT OF FLUID 592 00:35:24,933 --> 00:35:26,133 REALLY, REALLY FAST. 593 00:35:26,133 --> 00:35:28,467 THERE ARE PLACES WHERE IT'S A LOT LOOSER 594 00:35:28,467 --> 00:35:30,533 THAN IT'S BEEN IN A VERY LONG TIME. 595 00:35:30,533 --> 00:35:32,133 I'VE STILL GOT A WAYS TO GO, 596 00:35:32,133 --> 00:35:34,867 BUT I THINK I CAN FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL OF A CAR, 597 00:35:34,867 --> 00:35:36,067 WHICH IS EXCITING. 598 00:35:36,067 --> 00:35:37,867 I HAVEN'T BEEN ABLE TO DO THAT FOR A WHILE. 599 00:35:37,867 --> 00:35:39,733 WOULD YOU MIND PUTTING IT, LIKE, RIGHT THERE? 600 00:35:39,733 --> 00:35:40,667 SURE. I CAN DO THAT. 601 00:35:40,667 --> 00:35:41,933 Omar: IT'S A LITTLE SCARY. 602 00:35:41,933 --> 00:35:44,367 KNOWING THAT SHE'S GETTING BEHIND THE WHEEL AGAIN 603 00:35:44,367 --> 00:35:45,633 IS A LITTLE NERVE-RACKING. 604 00:35:45,633 --> 00:35:49,467 Amber: DRIVING IS ONE OF THOSE THINGS I THOUGHT 605 00:35:49,467 --> 00:35:51,500 I'D NEVER BE ABLE TO DO AGAIN. 606 00:35:54,533 --> 00:35:56,133 THIS IS SO COOL. 607 00:35:56,133 --> 00:35:58,067 YOU WANT TO BUCKLE UP? 608 00:35:58,067 --> 00:36:00,300 I CANNOT BELIEVE I FIT BEHIND THE WHEEL. 609 00:36:00,300 --> 00:36:01,567 HOW DOES IT FEEL 610 00:36:01,567 --> 00:36:04,067 TURNING AND EVERYTHING, LIKE TURNING THE WHEEL? 611 00:36:04,067 --> 00:36:04,833 IT FEELS FINE. 612 00:36:04,833 --> 00:36:06,267 IT FEELS NATURAL. 613 00:36:06,267 --> 00:36:08,433 I'M SURPRISED I CAN DO THIS. 614 00:36:08,433 --> 00:36:11,367 I WASN'T EXPECTING IT TO BE SO EASY. 615 00:36:11,367 --> 00:36:12,567 IT FELT REALLY GOOD. 616 00:36:12,567 --> 00:36:14,533 HOW DID I DO? 617 00:36:14,533 --> 00:36:16,167 GOOD. "A." 618 00:36:16,167 --> 00:36:18,300 I'M NOT AS FAR GONE AS I THOUGHT I WAS. 619 00:36:18,300 --> 00:36:20,700 THERE ARE STILL SOME PARTS OF ME LEFT IN HERE 620 00:36:20,700 --> 00:36:23,067 THAT HAVE GOT SOME SKILLS. 621 00:36:23,067 --> 00:36:25,100 I DROVE A CAR, OMAR. 622 00:36:25,100 --> 00:36:30,400 BEING ABLE TO DRIVE MEANS SO MUCH FOR MY INDEPENDENCE. 623 00:36:45,167 --> 00:36:48,533 I'M NOT THE SAME AMBER THAT STARTED THIS JOURNEY MONTHS AGO. 624 00:36:48,533 --> 00:36:51,933 I HAVE TO REALIZE I'M TAKING RESPONSIBILITY 625 00:36:51,933 --> 00:36:54,067 AND TAKING THE INITIATIVE TO CHANGE. 626 00:36:54,067 --> 00:36:57,400 IT'S BEEN YEARS SINCE I'VE BEEN SHOPPING 627 00:36:57,400 --> 00:36:59,467 FOR CLOTHES FOR MYSELF. 628 00:37:02,167 --> 00:37:04,633 CLOTHES SHOPPING HAS ALWAYS BEEN LIKE THIS FOR ME -- 629 00:37:04,633 --> 00:37:07,100 I FIND SOMETHING CUTE, BUT IT'S TWO SIZES TOO SMALL, 630 00:37:07,100 --> 00:37:10,533 OR MOST OF THE SELECTION IS GEARED TOWARDS OLDER WOMEN. 631 00:37:12,067 --> 00:37:14,900 OH, THAT'S NICE. 632 00:37:14,900 --> 00:37:17,733 I LIKE THAT. 633 00:37:17,733 --> 00:37:19,967 BLACK, HOUNDSTOOTH. 634 00:37:19,967 --> 00:37:21,267 I'M REALLY SURPRISED. 635 00:37:21,267 --> 00:37:24,233 SOME OF THE SMALLER SIZES THAT I HAVEN'T SEEN IN YEARS 636 00:37:24,233 --> 00:37:26,167 CAN FIT, AND THAT'S REALLY FUN. 637 00:37:26,167 --> 00:37:28,333 THAT I'M A 2X INSTEAD OF A SIZE 6X, 638 00:37:28,333 --> 00:37:30,533 THAT'S A HUGE ACCOMPLISHMENT TO ME. 639 00:37:30,533 --> 00:37:32,267 OH, YEAH. I CAN ROCK THAT. 640 00:37:32,267 --> 00:37:35,100 I WAS THINKING THAT NOTHING WAS GOING TO FIT, 641 00:37:35,100 --> 00:37:37,800 BUT I WAS VERY GLAD THAT THAT SWEATER FIT. 642 00:37:37,800 --> 00:37:39,933 WE DON'T HAVE ANY FULL-LENGTH MIRRORS AT MY HOUSE. 643 00:37:39,933 --> 00:37:43,467 AND LOOKING IN THAT MIRROR, I SEE A LOT OF ISSUES, 644 00:37:43,467 --> 00:37:45,233 A LOT OF FLAWS. 645 00:37:45,233 --> 00:37:46,700 I KNOW THAT WILL GET BETTER IN TIME. 646 00:37:46,700 --> 00:37:48,167 YEP, YEP, YEP. I AM GETTING THIS ONE. 647 00:37:48,167 --> 00:37:50,833 IT'S BEEN A WHILE SINCE I'VE BEEN ABLE TO DO 648 00:37:50,833 --> 00:37:52,600 THINGS LIKE THIS. 649 00:37:52,600 --> 00:37:56,333 I'M HAPPY TO BE BACK. 650 00:37:56,333 --> 00:37:57,667 I'M NOT GONNA GIVE UP. 651 00:37:57,667 --> 00:37:59,167 I AM GOING TO KEEP GOING, 652 00:37:59,167 --> 00:38:01,167 LOSING WEIGHT, KEEP GETTING HEALTHIER, 653 00:38:01,167 --> 00:38:03,133 AND NOT LET WHAT I SEE IN MY REFLECTION 654 00:38:03,133 --> 00:38:05,400 DISCOURAGE ME AT ALL. 655 00:38:05,400 --> 00:38:08,367 SO, I'M STARTING TO SEE A LIGHT AT THE END OF THE TUNNEL, 656 00:38:08,367 --> 00:38:10,633 SO I'VE DECIDED TO TAKE ANOTHER BIG STEP. 657 00:38:10,633 --> 00:38:13,300 I'M FINALLY AT A PLACE WHERE I CAN SAY 658 00:38:13,300 --> 00:38:16,700 I THINK IT'S TIME TO START TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. 659 00:38:16,700 --> 00:38:20,800 I THINK IT'S TIME FOR OMAR TO GO HOME. 660 00:38:20,800 --> 00:38:23,800 I JUST HOPE HE'S OKAY WITH IT. 661 00:38:28,833 --> 00:38:31,167 Amber: WHEN YOU'VE LIVED SO LONG WITHOUT HOPE, 662 00:38:31,167 --> 00:38:34,667 IT'S AMAZING WHAT A LITTLE OF IT CAN DO. 663 00:38:39,133 --> 00:38:41,333 Amber: LET'S GO FOR A WALK. 664 00:38:41,333 --> 00:38:44,967 TODAY, OMAR AND I ARE TAKING A WALK TOGETHER 665 00:38:44,967 --> 00:38:47,367 FOR THE LAST TIME FOR A WHILE. 666 00:38:47,367 --> 00:38:50,300 HE HAS TAKEN A LOT OF TIME OUT OF HIS LIFE 667 00:38:50,300 --> 00:38:51,667 TO HELP ME GET MINE BACK. 668 00:38:51,667 --> 00:38:55,333 I KNOW THAT HE'S GOT A LIFE TO LEAD, 669 00:38:55,333 --> 00:38:58,233 AND HE HAS PUT THAT ASIDE FOR QUITE A WHILE FOR ME, 670 00:38:58,233 --> 00:38:59,467 AND THAT'S NOT RIGHT. 671 00:38:59,467 --> 00:39:02,400 IT'S TIME I START DEPENDING ON MYSELF 672 00:39:02,400 --> 00:39:04,933 AND TAKING CARE OF MYSELF. 673 00:39:04,933 --> 00:39:08,200 NOW I AM CAPABLE AND I AM ABLE TO HAVE 674 00:39:08,200 --> 00:39:11,200 A LIFE OF MY OWN AND SUPPORT MYSELF. 675 00:39:11,200 --> 00:39:13,933 Omar: I USED TO BE SCARED FOR MY SISTER EVERY SINGLE DAY, 676 00:39:13,933 --> 00:39:16,067 BUT NOW I'M NOT SO MUCH WORRIED ABOUT HER ANYMORE. 677 00:39:16,067 --> 00:39:18,333 I'M NO LONGER JUST HER CAREGIVER, 678 00:39:18,333 --> 00:39:21,900 AND SHE'S NO LONGER JUST THE RECIPIENT OF MY CARE. 679 00:39:25,867 --> 00:39:27,733 I'LL MISS YOU. 680 00:39:27,733 --> 00:39:29,833 YOU STARTING TO TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF, 681 00:39:29,833 --> 00:39:32,167 YOU'VE HELPED ALL OF US. 682 00:39:32,167 --> 00:39:35,200 WE ALL NOW HAVE A SENSE OF PEACE. 683 00:39:39,533 --> 00:39:44,200 Amber: I KNOW THIS IS GOING TO BE NEW FOR ME. 684 00:39:44,200 --> 00:39:47,867 I'VE NEVER REALLY LIVED ALONE WITHOUT FAMILY AROUND. 685 00:39:47,867 --> 00:39:49,700 BUT IT'S TIME. 686 00:39:49,700 --> 00:39:52,267 I KNOW I CAN DO THIS. 687 00:39:55,433 --> 00:39:57,533 WE ARE GOING 688 00:39:57,533 --> 00:39:59,267 TO DR. NOWZARADAN'S, AND I'M REALLY EXCITED, 689 00:39:59,267 --> 00:40:01,167 'CAUSE I WANT TO KNOW WHAT MY WEIGHT IS. 690 00:40:01,167 --> 00:40:03,700 OOH! IT'S RAINING! 691 00:40:03,700 --> 00:40:05,400 I DON'T KNOW WHAT I WEIGH RIGHT NOW, 692 00:40:05,400 --> 00:40:08,067 BUT I FEEL REALLY GOOD ABOUT MY PROGRESS. 693 00:40:08,067 --> 00:40:10,500 I'VE BEEN WORKING HARD OVER THE LAST MONTHS, 694 00:40:10,500 --> 00:40:14,200 NOT JUST TO EAT BETTER, BUT TO DO MORE. 695 00:40:16,433 --> 00:40:18,533 THAT'S GREAT, RIGHT? YEAH. 696 00:40:20,100 --> 00:40:23,067 IT HAS BEEN 10 YEARS SINCE I HAVE BEEN UNDER 400 POUNDS. 697 00:40:23,067 --> 00:40:26,433 I NEVER THOUGHT I'D GET HERE. 698 00:40:26,433 --> 00:40:28,167 [ KNOCK AT DOOR ] COME IN. 699 00:40:28,167 --> 00:40:30,000 HELLO. HEY, DR. NOW. 700 00:40:30,000 --> 00:40:32,067 I SEE YOU'VE LOST SOME MORE WEIGHT. 701 00:40:32,067 --> 00:40:34,733 I'M GLAD TO SEE THAT YOU'RE MAKING GOOD PROGRESS. 702 00:40:34,733 --> 00:40:36,767 Dr. Nowzaradan: AMBER'S DOING A GREAT JOB. 703 00:40:36,767 --> 00:40:39,667 MORE AND MORE, SHE'S BECOMING INDEPENDENT. 704 00:40:39,667 --> 00:40:42,500 I'M PROUD OF AMBER STICKING WITH THE PROGRAM. 705 00:40:42,500 --> 00:40:44,833 SHE HAS A WAYS TO GO, BUT I'M CONFIDENT 706 00:40:44,833 --> 00:40:46,267 SHE WILL GET THERE. 707 00:40:46,267 --> 00:40:49,733 WHEN YOU GET DOWN TO MAYBE 250, 708 00:40:49,733 --> 00:40:53,400 THEN IT WILL BE TIME TO THINK OF DOING SOME SKIN SURGERY. 709 00:40:53,400 --> 00:40:54,733 OKAY. THANK YOU. 710 00:40:56,867 --> 00:40:59,100 I SURPRISED MYSELF. 711 00:40:59,100 --> 00:41:03,600 I'VE COME SUCH A LONG WAY, AND I STILL HAVE A WAYS TO GO, 712 00:41:03,600 --> 00:41:05,533 BUT I'M GONNA GET THERE. 713 00:41:05,533 --> 00:41:06,533 THANK YOU. 714 00:41:06,533 --> 00:41:08,600 I'VE TAKEN CONTROL OF MY LIFE. 715 00:41:11,600 --> 00:41:13,900 A YEAR AGO, I AM NOT SURE I BELIEVED 716 00:41:13,900 --> 00:41:16,100 MY LIFE WOULD EVER GET ANY BETTER. 717 00:41:16,100 --> 00:41:17,933 A YEAR AGO, I DIDN'T HAVE HOPE. 718 00:41:17,933 --> 00:41:20,800 I THINK WE JUST NEED MILK AND WE'RE GOOD TO GO. 719 00:41:20,800 --> 00:41:23,300 NOW I'M SHOPPING FOR MYSELF, I'M EATING HEALTHY, 720 00:41:23,300 --> 00:41:25,133 AND I'M WORKING OUT. 721 00:41:25,133 --> 00:41:27,900 I'M ABLE TO GO OUT IN THE WORLD 722 00:41:27,900 --> 00:41:29,900 AND KIND OF ENJOY LIFE A BIT MORE. 723 00:41:29,900 --> 00:41:32,833 LIFE IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT FOR ME NOW. 724 00:41:32,833 --> 00:41:36,900 TODAY, I'M GOING TO THE ZOO WITH ROWDY. 725 00:41:36,900 --> 00:41:39,333 IT SHOULD BE A LOT OF FUN. 726 00:41:39,333 --> 00:41:41,933 ROWDY AND I HAVEN'T REALLY BEEN ON A DATE TOGETHER 727 00:41:41,933 --> 00:41:44,100 SINCE WE MET A FEW YEARS AGO. 728 00:41:44,100 --> 00:41:47,267 WHEN I WAS 600 POUNDS, I COULD NEVER JUST GO OUT. 729 00:41:47,267 --> 00:41:48,600 Amber: LOOK AT HIM! 730 00:41:48,600 --> 00:41:52,067 I WAS BASICALLY HOUSE-BOUND. I COULDN'T GET OUT. 731 00:41:52,067 --> 00:41:53,267 I COULDN'T DO THINGS. 732 00:41:53,267 --> 00:41:55,600 NOW THE WORLD IS OPEN TO ME. 733 00:41:55,600 --> 00:41:56,567 AW, BABY! 734 00:41:56,567 --> 00:41:58,767 Rowdy: THEY'RE SO CUTE. 735 00:41:58,767 --> 00:42:01,600 I'M NO LONGER JUST AMBER OF ONE ROOM, 736 00:42:01,600 --> 00:42:03,833 AMBER OF ONE FLOOR OF ONE HOUSE. 737 00:42:03,833 --> 00:42:07,500 I'M NOW ABLE TO BE MYSELF EVERYWHERE. 738 00:42:07,500 --> 00:42:12,867 BUT THE BIGGEST CHANGE FOR ME HAS BEEN 739 00:42:12,867 --> 00:42:15,333 I'M NO LONGER USING FOOD TO COPE WITH MY ANXIETY OR FEAR. 740 00:42:15,333 --> 00:42:16,467 AW! 741 00:42:16,467 --> 00:42:18,167 I WORK THROUGH IT, 742 00:42:18,167 --> 00:42:21,433 AND I'M NOT GONNA LET IT CONTROL ME. 743 00:42:21,433 --> 00:42:22,633 HI, BUDDY. 744 00:42:22,633 --> 00:42:26,400 I'M NOWHERE NEAR DONE, BUT I'M A LOT HAPPIER. 745 00:42:26,400 --> 00:42:29,833 YOU GOT SEA LION KISSES. 746 00:42:29,833 --> 00:42:31,133 I DID.